I am writing the following because I know I am not the only one dealing with hypocrisy and life threatening health events directly related to the poisoning of the land.
One of the most disheartening discoveries I have made is that my sister who is 5 years younger than me knew all about the Agent Orange atrocities, but never told me. She is also ill, but has not been as ill on a daily basis. In 2003, when I found I had a tumor, my first concern was to get in touch with her and notify her. I told my daughter that I needed to get her a message somehow. My daughter said, "Don't worry about it mom. She already had cancer and a mastectomy in 2000." Never bothered to tell me. Nobody bothered to tell me. I would like to think she was a different person in 2000 than she was in the 1980's when the trials were going on and there was a class action suit of 35,000 people on Kauai trying to take on the US Government and huge chemical corporations. She has always lived in Hawaii. She is an educated person and was an assistant to the UofH chancellor or something like that. Her web site claims that she was a big shot in John Kerry's presidential campaign. The worst part of it is that she has a big fancy web site for chemically sensitive people and claims to have over 800 in her "flock." Isn't that what the missionaries called the congregations they were fleecing? The first page of the site claims it is a community of support and inspiration. Together we are strong, etc. Ha. Apparently, support and community does not happen unless she benefits from it and controls it. I think it would be difficult for any of her "flock" to come up with a story of less "support" from family members. To withhold this kind of information is potentially life threatening. I could even think of it as diabolical. For twenty five years I was just surviving when I could have been told what was wrong. Recently, her fancy site says, she quit her job "and now can spend more time on the web site." Apparently pursuing her monetary gain goal.
In 1987 or 1988, this sister told me that yogis in India could drink glasses of poison and not be bothered by it. As if it was my own lack of enlightenment that was causing the debilitating illness. The occasion for this flash of insight was when she came to the mainland and I told her I was so ill I thought I might not make it. I asked her if she would raise my daughters. The girls were 7 and 9 then. 1987 was years after the Kauai litigation began. I know it was one of these years because I remember driving 7 hours to get to where she was. I know where we were living in those years. Now she claims to have been diagnosed with Multiple Chemical Sensitivities in 1995. Cancer in 2000. By 1994, my daughters and I had moved so many times I cannot count - to the mountains, ocean, out of the country. We came to northern New Mexico in 1994 desperate for a place with no spraying and no mold. What is wrong with this picture? She has a lot of stuff for sale - all presented as things very ill people need - and because she cares so very much. She is all over the internet thanking people for mentioning her causes - like a real capitalist on the public relations trail. This is just another haole from the mainland scheming around Hawaii. If she had told me what was wrong with me years ago other members of my family would have had to admit I was actually ill. That might have led to monetary assistance. Not allowed.
For about 10 days I tried to convince myself that she did not know, or had not heard, or any other excuse I could think up. That's just being stupid. She worked for UofH, her husband is an executive at one of the big ag businesses in Hawaii.
Check it out: The Canary Report.
This is why I am still trying to lose track of my tribe.
